Your Trust Is Gone

Do you really not trust me?
After all I've done for you?
I gave everything I could
For you..
I've gotten abused, and I've
Lost people on the way
Just to hear you say
You're truly okay.
But I guess it wasn't
Enough.. I've lost your trust
And I don't know why..
I've bled and nearly
Died just to make your
Sky any color you wished..
You don't trust me.. Why?
What could of I done to
Do this? Is there something
Wrong with me..
With who I am?
Or have I just lost it because
You hate me now?
Do you really hate me?
Do you even remember
The promise you
Made me exactly a year ago,
When it was filled with
Tears and broken dreams?
"No matter what, I'll always love you,
No matter what I say or who I end up
With, I'll always love you"....
Do you even remember that, or is that
Now dust in the wind,
A broken promise, dead memory?
Whatever I did to cause you
To not trust me,
I'm sorry..
Please tell me? I'm slipping away
To insanity..
I need to know, I only want your
Trust back... Like what we had
A summer ago...
I highly doubt you'll ever see
What I've done, how I've stood up for you..
I am so
Unworthy to come home,
The damage has been done...
I just want to disappear...
But I will continue to stand
By your side,
I will stand right there,
No matter how torn up I
May be... Just forgive me..