It's so damn hard

It's so damn hard,
Being high as a kite from tickle fights,
The crashing down,
With the mention of a name that gives me apprehension.

It's so damn hard,
Learning to turn on a smile that burns,
The fake one,
That not even you can see through.

It's so damn hard,
When in the mirror you look and all you can see is the wrong path you took.
The disastrous one,
All I can see is a bad person staring back at me.

It's so damn hard,
When I can charm birds out of trees, except for the one I really want with me.
The most beautiful one.
And I'm so in demand but all I really want is to be holding her hand.

It's so damn hard,
To bottle it up, cos I know with that one I'll have no luck.
The got away one.
It's easy to tell someone how you feel... it's so damn hard leaving them unknowing, leaving them happy, Because you know it was never for real.