Deep from the heart

You might have made me cry
for three weeks 4 months and even more.
You might have made me want to Kill
myself and Kill you too.

But I'm getting over you
And I'm getting over the pain.

You tried to suffocate me
bring me down.
Your words always manipulating
some how I would always take your side.
I opened up about my weakness's
you used them as your knives.
Stabbing me until I fell
and could never stand on my own.

Believing your lies
I believed I was nothing .
That there was no me
Without you.

When I questioned
You about the note.
You charged at me
and went to punch.

"you fucking hopeless bitch
your poisoning our relationship"

These were the words you spoke .
Once again you made me
believe I was paranoid and insane.
I know now you were angry
I had worked out you plan.


The belongings you left
I threw away.
I buried the engagement ring.
Do you remember
I was supposed to be your wife?

I always thought
I would die if you left.
You abandoning me
Gave me life.


I am getting over you
more and more each day.
I thank you for what you did.
A woman has rose inside
Fearless ready to take
on her fight.



When the time comes
And you and I pass
on.

It is then I will take my revenge.
chop off your pathetic thing
You call a "penis".
My toys were bigger then yours.
I wanted a man to take over me seduce
me  choke me crave desire me .
I wanted to be you dirty sweet slut

Not get all pussy shy and silent.
I wanted to explore all our fetish fantasies
yet you became this little boy who was getting abused
I knew you had it in you I had found all your humiliating porn
why could you not gag me
like the ones you would wank to?

You left me dry
I begged each night for your touch
I even played in front of you
moaning loud
thinking you'll get turned on

I remember the last time
I gave you head
how I was tearing at your flesh
your cock tasted different this time
I knew something was up
I had rage in me then
wishing I could strangle you
watch your eyes as you begin to die
you blew on my face
buttoned your pants walked out
you did not kiss me
or please me in anyway
I knew then our love had died and gone

So now I am with know one
stronger then ever
yet have not had a mans touch
for I am empowered and not loosing control
even though I yearned to be touch I will
only wait

I am over you
the thought of you
entering me makes me puke
I thank you for the pain

You broke my spirit free
You have awaken a journey in me.