Addiction

I stumble on the open ground.
Where on-lookers shove me on.
And I creep into another hole.
As I pray they all be gone.

As they hoard me with their devilish cries.
To guide me back to norm.
I selfishly ignore their gruesome howls.
And I burrow beneath the worms.

So sickly when i'm elevated
So deep inside the ground
For love, I held my breath and waited
So I could not be found.

I hated hearing all thoughts negated
Their feelings shut me down
I just wanted  to get wasted
and ignore their useless frowns.

Ignore them from a deeper side
A world they've never known
Where they do not wish to come around
And see me pleased at home

I lash out when they try reaching down
Why won't they let me be alone
Why won't they love me how I am now
And leave me to die here on my own