stained

 once i slipped and fell covered my soul with a stain
 a stain of a million tears a stain of a trillion fears

 the soil under my nails would not wash away
 no matter how hard i scrubbed it seemed there to stay

 a darkness an evil creeping from under my skin
 the filth of my misery the filth of my sin

 joy is a word that i never shall know
 hate filled madness is all my garden can grow

 despise the beauty i can never find
 hate the world that stumbles on so blind

 await the day of my pitiful end
 that day when i shall finaly transend

 leave this blurr all in the past
 there will be rest for the wicked at last
 
 upon the dark stallion i will finaly ride
 finger in the air screaming my goodbyes