Stuck in a moment

what...
what prompted you to leave...
did you miss home
did you miss the change of seasons
the snow in winter
the leaves in the fall
the blooming of flowers in the spring
that doesn't occur in my paradise
surrounded by the sea
or did you miss him
is that why you walked away
you missed him?
that sorry excuse for a man
hit a woman
feel big about himself
sell some rock
make a dirty wealth
is it some sort compensation
a lack of that passionate determination
something he lacks physically
cuz he ain't as big a man as me
in any shape or form
he ain't from the ghetto
he never lived hard
white boy lost in the static
and here i am
strong ethnic man
funny ain't it
i make an honest living
i do what i need to do
i play ball
i get noticed
but you leave me
for him??
how can i help but be angry
and then defend him when he insults me!
i'm happy i left him bleeding and dying on the concrete
and he's the one who pulled a gun!
i defended myself a man doesn't run
wether faced with challenges or adversity
and i'm stuck in these moments
playing in my mind
seeing you wall onto that plane to leave me behind
sick of a moment
lost in time
stuck
throwing a punch
watching you cry
not being able to say goodbye
lost in a moment
i felt no love for you
and no longer for i be lost in the moment
our love began
the run time
or ended
because its a waste of my time being lost in a moment