Just to remember

Sweating bullets, shaking hands.
Poisoned mind, scattered plans

My dark passenger , .despaired man
Who thought up this tainted plan.

Subtle doubt, though plagued within,
 You can play but never win.

Mental trauma self inflicted,
God my plans are so conflicted.

Colours spinning in my mind,
A silver lining yet to find.

To look within where answers lie.
You owe your self at least to try,

It's your choice for you to make,
It doesn't suit you to be fake.

Make a choice and enjoy the ride,
Don't hold back because of pride.

I could be crazy or disillusioned,
overcome with self confusion.

It's too risky to play this game,
And it's only me who I can blame.

I walked the line, and rubbed it out.
I done the time and saw it out.