tell me it's complicated without telling me it's complicated

I don't want any more kids  
but  
I wish my womb would stop  
bleeding itself out every month  
so I can stop hoping  
it's still capable of holding life  
 
...  
 
My boyfriend  
hates my depression  
made the offhand comment  
that he'd like me to get better  
so I can go back  
to keeping the house clean  
 
...  
 
One of my oldest friends  
thinks it's funny she's dating  
the male version of me  
and never fails to remind us  
every time we all hang out  
like it doesn't make everyone  
(that's not her)  
grossly uncomfortable  
 
...  
 
My best friend told me  
I'm the love of his life  
and then knocked up  
his fuck buddy  
 
We haven't talked about it  
but I've seen the ultrasound  
 
...  
 
I told my daughter  
not to be like me  
and she decided to  
take my history  
and make it a guide book  
to life  
 
...  
 
My son was so sick  
he could have died  
 
I didn't tell my family  
because I couldn't bear  
being the epicenter  
of rumour and gossip again  
 
And since my kid isn't dead  
what they don't know  
can't come back to bite me  
 
...  
 
He said I can't live  
a fulfilling life  
without trust  
 
I'd prove him wrong  
if he wasn't already right  
 
...  
 
I'm aware it's problematic  
that I assume everyone's an arsehole  
until they prove they're not