endings become beginnings...

 
1) right where I am
     dragging failures...
     hopes...
     dreams...
 
2) everything
     the baggage unpacked
     the debris of memory  
     from haunted days when...
 
3) I felt so beautifully alive
     a doll fresh from her box
     wide eyed & untouched
     ...innocence still intact
 
4) it's the little things
     details hidden in lowered eyes  
     nails bitten to the skin
     unnoticed evidence
 
5) as so often happens
     what isn't seen is the most damaging  
     words unspoken the more binding
     until it unravels or implodes
 
6) I am reminded
     how deceptive concrete can be
     cracks become chasms
     swallowing the unwary
 
7) I'm fascinated by abandoned places
     pockets of shadow hold secrets
     just as do we...
     us fractured beautiful beings
 
8) I still hear laughter through the floorboards
     ear pressed to the wall
     listening to thundering pulse
     as change continually beckons
 
9) don't let it be her breaking
     in a world where rights are acid drenched
     eating away solidity...
     creating nonentities of humanity
 
10) a living work of art
     comes from such adversity
     coloring outside hate-drawn lines
     blending hues of diversity
 
11) there is beauty in a sense of belonging
     having a place of refuge
     where growth & hope
     amplify with learning
 
12) when my heart is engaged
     it cannot be contained
     overflowing it's perimeter  
     a love flood defying any inhibitor
 
13) in memory forever
     engraved in eternal safekeeping  
     heart forever taking you with me
     ...yes, you...& you...& them too
 
14) I felt the weight of the words
     with every molecule of my being
     like skin stretched over their bones
     I hold them close
 
15) they show you
     who they are in their depths
     shades & layers of evolution
     ...or denial of personal progress
 
16) you don't think about it much
     how connections weave our tapestry
     tangible evidence of many threads
     woven into our dimensional fabric
 
17) today
     ends an era of passion
     expression & understanding  
     as community seeks other shelter
 
18) I'm doing the best I can
     grieving the loss
     letting go of the past
     maintaining its integrity
 
19) I'll bare mine
     on other pages
     should the mood...
     & welcome...suit me
 
20) words finally recede
     stage shrouded as curtain drops
     lights slowly fade
     ghosts of voices forever gone
 
21) the fight has just begun
     holding phantoms by ephemeral hands
     ushering them into new horizons
     ...if only in our memorial minds
 
22) I will no longer participate
     in endeavors not fulfilling  
     allowing words to be locked away
     I will be healing at full volume
 
23) enough
     time will pass unnoted
     pages in books dogeared & stained
     from tears washing past days away
 
24) eternally healing
     helping each other through the storm
     a chain of souls with arms linked
     it's how we survive...thrive
 
25) to find my own feet
     takes all my focus
     unless I allow others to assist
     passing along what others give
 
26) recognizing the difference
     between thought & action
     requires self-awareness  
     using determination as the impetus
 
27) separately together  
     Eerie...David...Gabriel...Lori...gone
     Devlin...Taryn...Her...so many more
     unforgotten...who simply moved on
 
*{& sometimes life goes off the rails
 best laid plans fail...
 just keep going...}*
 
28) take my hand
     with conviction & strength
     that's what community builds
     formidable footing & stable structures
 
29) it really is all about the journey
     at the edge of this abyss
     as skies darken into unknown night
     this is your time to shine
 
30) set the sky on fire!
     ablaze with your tenacity
     & the veracity of your truth
     you...inferno personified