it was never meant to hurt like this

Tell me, tell me
love isn't supposed
to hurt like this

I ache
and tremble
you've become the panic attack
my veins call home
but I'm not a junkie
for this love anymore
I'm not a junkie for you

Or at least that's what
I tell myself
once the shakes start
and I want to rip my skin to shreds
with these prolonged withdrawals

I don't need you, I don't need you
I don't need
...
you

If this is the way we hurt
I don't want it

I will forsake the resurrection
of my soul
just to bury the remains of our story
and curse the ground we fucked on
because it's not holy
it's not holy
it's not holy

You are not my salvation
you are not the answer
to the question
I've been asking all my life
there is no redemption to be found
in the crystallised fossils of blood
we treasure like diamonds
I'm not richer for them

If you're what I deserve
I don't want it
I don't want it

So tell me, tell me
love isn't supposed
to hurt like this
and let me go