The Narcissist Victim - "Hollow Echo / Nothing"

— stop. / no, wait— rewind. // it didn’t— happen— like that. / did it?
(no, you’re just sensitive.) / (I didn’t mean it like that.)
(but you said—) / but you said— / but—
… no, never mind. forget it. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m—
 
(erase.)
 
I swear I used to have a voice. // a shape. a name.
but you pressed your hands into my skull, // said, No, you’re remembering wrong.
said, I love you. Don’t you trust me? / (the knife is in my hands now.)
I— / I don’t know anymore. / I—
(you don’t know anymore.)
 
(again.)
 
it’s not that bad.
why are you so dramatic?
why do you always make me the villain?
(I never said that,) (you’re just twisting my words,) (you do this to yourself.)
(say it. again. say it again. say it until it doesn’t mean anything—)
 
(reset.)
 
no, listen— / no, please— / you have to believe me—
I remember the walls closing in. / the mirror fogging up. / the way my own hands shook when I tried to write it down.
(the words melted before they hit the page.)
(say it again. say it until you forget.)
 
— I never said that.
— you’re making things up again.
— you always do this.
 
(rewind.)
 
I love you. / I love you. / I love you. / I—
(I don’t know what that means anymore.)
 
(hollow.)
 
…I think I used to have a name.
…but you said I never did.
 
(nothing.)