"Dream world" vs "Waking world"

                 
                 
                 
        sometimes the "dream world" is where I'd like to be; there's this chance that "favor" is granted almost automatically;                
                 
        even though within the "dream world"-aspects of the "waking world" more or less bleeds within the lines- of the blurry fantasy;                
                 
       the "waking world"(madness dressed in illusion)is mostly a harsh reality- filled with peaks and valleys- storms consistent of bricks and stones- guaranteed damage to the psyche(though we wonder why people snap)               
                 
    there's no wonder why escape is what people more or less seek; in the "waking world" access is made to some exclusively- where one indirectly/directly competes- or mind fucked into believing in a certain way to be("they live- movie" type reality)....                
                 
    though the "dream world" also seems like a simulation project- done on the masses- like an experiment- that I'd pretend not to see.... escapism is where I live-there's no true place called "home" here for me....                
           
  this realm known as "reality"- is a vacuum- that exists to engulf ones' mind, body, and soul.... forces one to think the worst of thoughts- because this place seeks control....          
           
 this realm is truthfully a real "sick joke".... and i resonate with those that see a destined dead decaying place- not meant for a soul....          
     
 though instead of a shut down-for the madness to finally cease- the endless cycle continues to repeat....      
   
   
  "hell" disguised as "heaven".... if a "fair god" actually was to be- then as a child-"he" should've put me out of my misery-"he" should've saved me the future grief....    
 
 
I've grown to loathe this place with a passion....