shine

 
sulking in the shadows
solace doesn't find me, sadness does
my peace altered by fear
the lurking phantoms, always about
torturing my thoughts
with gruesome scenarios

a heavy debt, for my association with the deep dark
swimming well enough in the depths
until my emotional sharks, come through and pull me under

it's out of my hands
it's a cold place, of no favor
I'm not highly redeemed in this place
I am known for being cruel

it's my response to these beings
my gentleness shows
until it doesn't
then my dark lashes out
and even the darkest blanches

revulsed by my actions
I am shamed for my behavior
hidden chambers, I shelter my own
seeking nobility in the direst lots

held to a standard, I do my best
sanctifying my hurt
it is understood, it speaks loudly, of past pain
sacred art, with knowledge, cultivating love
so the bleakest places, shine with understanding