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    how can you heal what is deathing?- "I'm ready to go right now"~John legend; existence green lit for what though?-this shit is really fucking cut throat- why must we have so many questions?-about whatever brought about catastrophe destined-headed to "Armageddon";             
               
    I fear/praise "god" not- because the dark is where he/it left us....all this " god is watching" and "the devil's gonna getcha"(spookisms)-the darkness I embrace is the "sin" that's labeled pleasure- weed- the only most high that's effective and an alcoholic beverage that fastforward hours like seconds....              
               
  I'm tired of all the lectures- any subliminal message; cause all I see in the end are copes to keep from stressing.... this is a "game"- fuck the diffculty settings; wish there was an "easy way out" - "old age" is dreaded; I don't embrace "society"-with its stages of second guessing....              
               
 I see the trees- I see the forest- one's superstitious Stevie- no matter how much I ignore shit.... I'm tired- I feel like biggie in suicidal- like death's the blessing in disguisement- waking up everyday- yet i don't recognize this....              
               
I don't want their heaven- or the hell that's been created- I hate it- if I'm praying- I'm praying that I'm out before my age hits- the point of straight depravement....              
               
I'm tired of the bullshit- all the lies of what this place is- what's really the fucking difference between (so called)"progression" and (so called)"complacent"?- I'm just saying....