(45) Please Forgive Me Little Brother 03.31.2024 @ 9:56am

I’m sorry for everything!
I’m sorry for mistreating you.
I’m sorry for yelling at you.
I’m sorry for getting angry with you.

I’m sorry for being a bad brother.
I can’t forgive myself, nor would I ever.
I wish you were still here with me.
I’m deeply sorry for everything.

Please forgive me baby boy!
R.I.P. *CENSORED*
You will never be forgotten.
March 12, 2024.

Born: June 2, 2007.
I love you so very much.
Please watch over me.
I’m going to miss you.

I’m always going to cry.
I will always be sad.
Knowing you’re no longer here with me.
I don’t even know who I am anymore.

I hate myself!
I shouldn’t be here.
Why did I do this?
Why didn’t I tell him to wait?

I’m so fucked up in the head.
I wish it was me that was dead.
I’m so ready to fill my head with lead.
I’m fed up being alive, enough said.

Oh how I miss you.
If only you knew.
I feel so blue without you.
I can’t explain this dark feeling.

You gave my life so much meaning.
Now again, it’s your love I’m fiending.
It’s a loss that I’m feeling.
Playing these cards, I’m dealing.

They say I need to let you go.
I can’t believe I lost you to dope.
Now all I feel is lost without hope.
I can’t breath, it’s a tight rope.

How do I proceed with my life?
We’re no longer going to get high.
I gotta figure out how to get by;
With my brother in the sky.

Down here, all I do is cry.
I ask myself why?
Why couldn’t it been me instead?
Why be alive when my brother is dead?

I can’t forget the last words I said.
I regret it dearly, what I said.
Now you’re gone.
I feel so guilty, I was wrong.

Now all I have left is this song.
I was so very wrong.
I will miss you forever.
You’ll never be forgotten

I can’t help the way I feel.
I hate that I still have life to deal.
I wish I could change what happen.
I feel so cold but for you I’m still rappin’.

I heard the devil laughing.
I bet that motherfucker was clapping.
Waiting for my arrival but that didn’t happen.
I’m still here, strapped in.

I’m busting these lines.
Fuck bro, I’m still wondering why.
It doesn’t feel right, without you.
I feel so high but still blue.

Like I said before, I wish it was me.
It sucks knowing I’m still not free.
Seems like I will never be.
I’m stuck doing time without my mini me.

I won’t lie, I feel high as fuck.
Since you left, feels like I’m running out of luck.
Wish you were still here.
I feel like I need a fucking beer.

I want this feeling to stop!
I feel like my body is about to drop.
I’m not even sure what to feel.
I’m depressed, still having life to deal.

Wishing I was with you.
Fuck bro, I can’t help feeling blue.
If only you knew.
I feel so weird, like brand new.

Not in a good way.
I have so much to say.
Wish you was still here today.
Now I know these drugs aren’t to play.

Wish I could really change.
Without you here, I feel so strange!
I can’t even think straight.
I can barely contemplate.

I’m fucking with my faith.
I’m risking it all in this place.
Oh how I fucking miss you!
Everyday I awake feeling blue.

I can’t lie, I feel like killing myself.
I feel like I’m living in hell.
I’m living a fucking nightmare.
I’m just a drug addict and I’m aware.

I don’t give a fuck anymore.
I wish we never left that door.
I’m stuck here, starring at the floor.
We ran out of time, wish I had more;

More time to spend with you.
Everything I did was with you.
You helped me so much.
Now my life feels rough.

They tell me to be strong, tough.
To be honest bro, I had enough.
I’m ready to say farewell!
Since that day, all I do is dwell.