languish

 
wandering through I look out at the world
losing my footing I lose time
I don't know where I go
I'm just not here anymore

rumination of feeling plagues me
darkly seeing things
visions of darkness enter my mind
colliding with thoughts out of rhythm

strange comfort in the neediness of it
strike the idea and corrupt the feeling
an uneasiness overcomes me
and I retreat into the shadows
where I can purvey the scenery

there have been demons in my dreams
with disturbing views
sulking in the shade
they cavort while I pout

sinsiter doubt, they eat off my plate of sin
picking which delusions I will suffer
grateful horde, for my illness
insanity, feeds them well

a malaise comes over me
and I succumb to the thievery
they are stealing my peace

occult worship, masochistic gore
oh lord help me
disengrating evil watches me
stalking my days

I banish it into the dark, where it waits
a finale of pain coming my way
restrained emotions cause a depressive state
from which I languish