rain

 
sorrow rains inside me
looking cheerful but you know...
 
I'm lying to myself
seriously hurt, I withdraw
you get what I'm willing to show
 
a fake smile, like it's okay
it's tiring this game
trusts broken, take a long time to heal
if they do at all
 
gentle understanding, I love you
but I pull back when you don't get it
I just want to know my place
with or without you
 
sacred brokenness, my pain causes sadness
and I question
it makes you mad but I was never jealous
until you broke it
 
honesty in the moment
assurances in tenderness
give me love and it will come back to you
 
feed my rage and you will meet the devil in me