toxicity

 
indiscreet feelings show themselves
they rise to the surface and I know
gazing off into space longing on your face
all to catch a glimpse of someone else
 
obsession, it shows in what you do
it hurts, you put this much effort into another
you love the chase  
 
love is a game of chance in your eyes
your motives surround sexual endeavors  
meant to make you feel better about yourself
 
it shadows my days
with thoughts maybe you think it's love
it hurts me in the background
I'm the jealous wife
with no foundations for my feelings
 
so I say nothing and watch you look foolish
it makes me feel stupid
this girl uses her sex as a powerplay
only giving you treats for your cruelty to me
 
peek a boo in the yard
you caught a sight of her  
she should reward your efforts
your tongue has been especially sharp
 
twenty seven years we've been together
it seems to matter little
I've been your support these years, your love
 
indiscrimanent flirtations, you don't seem to care if you hurt me
I've told you before, do what you do
don't let me see
don't flaunt it and cause me pain
but it appears that's her turn on  
causing another woman hurt
 
cruelty is its own master  
it will come back on her head
she was my friend
a fake, a phony, grappling for the ring