I wish....things were that simplistic(mental health)

             
             
             
     I appreciate the good of this "experience" but there's too many "worldly" complications; some of my vices are escapism, idealism, internalization, suicidal ideation; I dread being an extension of this creation....            
             
   contemplating; "rational exit doors"-though guarded-gated-hard to reach places-takes too much patience; truthfully-one deeply feels low-key high-risk-with the exception being nontraumatic situations....            
             
 I wish things in this life where simple.... where there's little to no need for alleviation-or an obsessive need to get inebriated....