reality

 
darkly spinning hidden in the pain
ordained to fail I take a risk
seriously doubting myself but still
I come out in the open
 
gambling on myself
I'm all involved in my future
taking time to focus myself, I center
 
flirtatious disaster, I choose wisely how I handle myself
decadent hate, it hurts when we collide
indecent lust won't get the better of me
wrecked pride won't define my life
 
low self esteem causes collisions with fate
built upon sour dispostions it collapses
falling through time I look back to realize it was always me
 
causing sorrow over and over
when it didn't need be or did it?
 
wondering, I catalog past hurts
wandering through the dark  
stalking visions I lost sight of myself
I went blind to the evil I was calling on
 
dispelling myths I'm getting better
mystic need, I am different
swirl the fog let it clear
and see what's real