Imposter

hello dearest Moon this is a hard write... I think we all do our best there must be something positive you've learned in this life it's hard to be yourself when you know it won't be well received and the popular vote wins just be yourself...

I appreciate your feedback, crimsin. True that it's not an easy write, indeed. Sometimes I question myself and how authentic I truly am. You might have felt the same way at some point. Self-doubt can be a mighty bitch.

I can relate to this in many ways.  It's almost like a mid-life crisis, to me.  Often, it's the what ifs that make you question your esteem and motivation in life.  Fear and uncertainty about the past always seem to be 20/20 in hindsight.  Regret seems more logical, at times.  I would say, though, that dreams, aspirations, and goals aren't necessarily achieved in any absolution.  Whether you just live for the moment, or for family, or for self-satisfaction in leisure, or even becoming a doctor, you could still be this "imposter."  I think this is common grounds for dwelling in anyone that has rationality.  After all, with no truth or purpose yet revealed, how does one "get the best out of" life?  Or is that simply being as true and honest as possible?  What would the pursuit of such an ambiguity be anyway?  Self-affirmation?  Anyway, this is a great topic to write on.  I guess you can really go in circles and cycles about it.  You seem to take an angle of depression, or doubt, or sadness in acceptance.  Great poem.  Made me contemplate a bit.  Thanks for sharing!

I appreciate your thoughtful feedback, Connotation. Very true that one can go in endless cycles on this topic. Always questioning ourselves. What could have been vs. our 'true selves' and authenticity, etc. Glad it touched a nerve.