tension

i‘m fine,
i‘m getting by,
i‘m on my own.

until there’s flashbacks,
until my feed changes,
until we chat yet again.

my whole body reacts,
my whole world trembles,
my mind begins to spin.

then i see you
and the lust in your eyes
then i …

you control my breathing
you make me shudder
you paint my skin red
you keep me quiet
you …

then there’s you
saying hello in front of everyone
and i can read your mind
so i‘m spinning in circles
yet again.

yet again,
i…
no, i-
you…

i‘m caught up, begging for you.
your mind draws my reality
whenever we’re alone
i‘ve already lost trying to stay in control
i‘m caught up, begging for you.

keeping the tension alive,
yet again.