Not Mine

Trying to see if I can let you go
Can I ignore the pain and not let it show?

Over and over Im consumed with doubt
Worried about living with the fallout

So many issues that just aren't mine
Your words and your actions don't always align

You say that you're done but still keep him near
At times your motivations arent that clear

I get frustrated and go to a dark place
I wish they were my choices but that isn't the case

As much as I love you, should I take all this on?
Can I live with the fact that he'll never be gone?

You are a princess and the prince is him
Can I be what you need, the chances are slim

I think about walking away but can't figure out how
Your spirit and your energy are a part of me now

To turn away from you would be to turn away from me
I can't give you up, I am your devotee

Hopelessly and helplessly committed to you
But will I get the chance to do more than pursue?

Will I ever feel like I completely have your heart?
Will your dependence on him ever depart?

Sometimes it feels like a game I can't win
Like Ive already lost before I begin