these secrets on my tongue

I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
but you don't speak my language
and like throwing the bones
of myself into the ocean
they fall through the depths of us
unheard

I scream into the dark silence
I scream at the silent myths
of this existence
I scream at the lies I was born into
I scream at the lies I tell myself
I scream until I'm voiceless
never mind that I always was
it just took losing my voice to notice
the weight of my own nothingness

I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
but you don't speak my language
your tongue the wrong kind of oblivion
and I hate how I settle
for this particular silence
when I'm not done screaming
for you to translate the crash of my mouth

I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
and you still don't know me at all