Disintegrate

I spent eternity  
Searching for my lost love  
Among darkest nights
And forgotten drunken fights
 
Yet you stood right before me
With that look In your eyes
Knowing all the deceit  
All the hidden lies
 
My mind was drowning  
In waves of suicide  
While you tried to pull me
From the deafening cries
 
I'll die right here
To save you the trouble  
Don't waste your time  
On mounds of rubble  
 
I'll disintegrate
Right before your eyes
A closing curtain  
With no final goodbyes
 
Now you see me
Now you don't  
I have nothing to offer  
That you'd ever want
 
Hide yourself
Away from me
I'm not the influence  
Your beautiful life needs
 
One last thing  
Before I go  
Don't be like me  
Don't be your greatest foe