Successful At Killing Me</3

This morning it seems
Wasn't so full of pleasant dreams

I awoke and had no need for the stuff that belongs to you
I was dieing complete cause you and didn't know what to do

The fuck it plan helped for the night
But when I woke up I was back to square one right?

So I knew then it was the only way
And I'd end it all today

I took a bottle and swallowed every pill cept one
I saved it for the moment I wanted it completely done

So here it goes I swallow it down
Then suddenly I begin to frown

I had run to the bathroom chocking the last one down hard
I thought I'd no longer be your guard

But I kept dry heaving till
I had puked up every last pill

The pain was still too much I wish
That then it would've ended and those pills be my last dish

For this time I'm unsure
If you can be forgiven, even our memories are becoming a blur

But I guess it never mattered dear
Cause you did yet another sin which I saw in fear

The sin of betrayal the one just before murder
I'm not letting that happen for sure...

Maybe I will forgive..but never forget
Suicide I almost committed for you but yet you have no regret

Oh and don't worry I'll leave you be
Till the day you become successful at killing me