the shut out

Keeping to myself,
Letting no one in,
Making myself numb,
So the shut out can begin.

I'm sorry if this hurts,
Or makes you want to cry,
Just know that inside,
I want to die.

There is one that walks among you,
One I won't shut out,
One that can save me,
One I can't live without.

She won't however,
For she does not care,
She doesn't notice,
If I'm even there.

So dear if you're reading this,
I need you to know,
That you can save me if you stay,
Or destroy me if you go.