At least that’s what I hope

Sometimes I force myself to write,
Much like I’m doing right now
If I don’t, then I’ll just bottle everything and
Let the world swallow me up whole
I like to think I’m strong or that I’ve healed
In more ways than one
Or that I’m better than who I was
But my mind feels heavy
I say I’m sure of myself when actuality
I am far from myself here lately
I can speak to many friends or people about the feeling of uncertainty
But I haven’t left square one
Im alone
 yet I also have someone
Am I nuts for feeling overwhelmed by the daily dose of life
I may not have negative thoughts being told to me by others but how do I save myself from myself
The negative thoughts that I feel every day
That sometimes consume me
How do I continue to be the positive person when I myself am ugly to myself
Thats where hope comes in
I have hope for a brighter future, that there will be a day
Where I can put those negative thoughts and feelings away
So while I feel consumed now
It won’t be this way for long
I’ve been right but I’ve also be wrong
And I’ve felt I didn’t belong
Or deserve to feel happy
But everyone is human, everyone
Deserves a chance to be happy and everyone
Has made mistakes
So for Christ’s sake
While you’re awake
Go out, live
Learn from your mistakes, smile and cry
Live your life
Even when you feel too hurt to do so
Because there will be a day where
All the negative energy will leave you
And you will start seeing sunny days with less rain
Less pain
And so much more growth
Or at least that’s what I hope