intelligence

 
tortured bully my intelligence gets me in trouble
sacrifice thought for knowledge
sometimes my seek gets me lost
resisting immortal arrest
God's stalker I want to know him better
 
it never occurs to me he gets bored sometimes
then goes elsewhere to take a break from you
and all he wants is a shallow affair
a cosmic one-night stand
what is impressive to me  
 
is for him just beautiful in the moment
but if he just wanted one person
that's all he'd have
 
when it goes quiet I get hurt and pushy
but he's not the kind of man who appreciates an infant companion
just because I want to know more doesn't mean he'll tell me
don't get me wrong I know where he is
but I'm like a mistress who he sees covertly on his schedule  
his power is such that you don't go to his favorite club or house uninvited
and believe me, if you try to force the point
 
he's got some bouncers who will bounce you right on out
I call them henchmen some people call them angels
reduce the pain and envision
whatever feelings or thoughts you have  
what a pale vision we have to think we can know him in one life
 
severity is crunching the numbers
of how much my soul is worth
fighting for my soul it's not up for bid
wrestling with dreams for my hope
 
terror brought to my door to see if I have the courage I say I have
increments of pain sometimes in overwhelming amounts
seeking God in the text looking for him in the heavens
 
a warning to those who seek  
when things go silent and when you don't get an answer
I mean don't get me wrong he appreciates bravery
but foolhardy he won't stand
 
when he wants to be alone don't knock on his door
and believe me, he knows how to make you understand
he enjoys his privacy  
 
he wants us to know how powerful he is
he's destroyed whole civilizations in a fit of rage
he shows us what are to us very powerful events  
that cause us terror are warnings
he doesn't ask for respect he demands it
and never take that for granted