Expectations

I love nature
The birds, the trees
The wild and the green
I love observing it
And taking shots of it
With my camera
Which makes a perfect picture
Where time stands still
I love writing and reading
How the words take meaning
How they make me feel things
A new reality
In each and every story
Wanting to convey a message
And make a statement
But these are things
I shall not pursue
Since money
Isn't much earned
From pursuing such inclinations
My mother told me
You should study
Real professions
So you may obtain
A good paying job
And eventually
Marry a well off man
But what is the meaning of all this?
What is the gain?
If I am unhappy
And everything is in vain