I am Nothing while here

I am Nothing.
I am that little worm on a big fkn hook.
I am the one who continues to lose in life.
I am the man of little faith in friends.
I am the man who has been married and divorced twice.
I am the fat grotesque man that cannot have children.
How much time do i have left?
Only God knows the answer.
Since i am 50, not long i tell you. Men don't live long in life.
Then again this life is temporary.  The next life is Eternal. I am so looking forward to the next life.
No more death.
No more pain.
No more crying.
No more tears.
No more unhappiness.
It'll be great to be to my true home, with my dear family and friends who have already gone ahead.
Hope to see those i know there that are here with me currently.