knowledge

 
before there was any known language
there was a being who had dreams and visions
some of those visions terrorized him
some of his dreams were beautiful
there was a sort of singing
without words, it was full inflection feelings
space was empty and vast

swimming through echoing his location
nothing echoed back but he was sure he wasn't alone
the dark faith inscribed on his soul
were vows he made to himself there in the dark
according to the manifestation of his prophecy

he shows me things he takes me deep into the past
it becomes so real I confuse these memories with my own
I felt the incredible loneliness he felt at that time
he has spoken of other advanced civilizations
that he sang over like a loving mother
and he reminds me he is a very powerful being
not to frighten me but to remind me being myself is fine
as long I don't take him for granted

he told me the other societies weren't ready for technology
and not ready for some pieces of knowledge
so he killed the ones who stood against him
and took the pieces of knowledge away from the other beings
so they didn't destroy themselves with it

those who died protecting the knowledge died not for gold
but to keep the great knowledges out of the wrong hands
I spent most of my life sleeping walking
and going along forgetting there was something more important at hand
I never mentioned demons or Lucifer in fact I didn't believe in them
then one day are real Father hit hard
he told me a lot of things but the main thing was that he knew me and my fantasies
and if I didn't think he doesn't see this part of me I was stupid

he didn't just have a gentle conversation with me he hit me hard
plus he took the veil off my mind and I was no longer deaf and dumb
I could hear him loud and clear I could hear him interacting with his men
I was so angry at first nothing looked the same when I saw how stupid
what we say is important when you see things from his perspective

don't get me wrong he loves his congregation but they are sleeping
and that's for their protection so reading this will not disturb they just won't believe
Adonai goes by many different names and is multidimensional in personality just like we do
I mean you got your go to work face, your dealing with kids face, your dealing with your enemy face etc.
he too has sides and faces but one thing I'm he loves you guys

all of us were part of his prophecy that gave him he was very lonely
and now his dreams are being realized in companionship
perhaps not his level but getting some people get away with lying to him
I don't even try to anymore I'm like Adonai I'm having a real people problem
plus I can't get a quiet vacation by myself cause my mind never shuts up
and I'm sure it drives you crazy too
so if you have an answering machine it's okay if you put me on it
because it must get on your nerves anyway good morning Father
I love you