Eyes open

Laying there I'm staring  
Breathless with eyes open  
Her tender touch caring  
Voices saying I'm broken  
 
Searching for salvation  
Devouring my temptations  
Into a lustful situation  
Of marital assassination  
 
I escaped the reality of life  
The hell I put my family through  
Ultimate betrayal of my wife  
Downward spiral I corkscrewed  
 
This affair was an accident  
Never anything I intended  
Broken marital sacrament  
I lived the lies I pretended  
 
I fed her so many lies  
Tricking her to be with me  
I became who I despise  
My blackened soul of misery  
 
I burned down my family  
What I did was so wrong  
Could have lived so happily  
Now I'm lost and so alone  
 
The ashes had forewarned  
My self control was the threat  
Muddied puddles from this storm  
Living with constant regret  
 
Laying there I'm staring  
Mind racing eyes open  
Endless thoughts uncaring  
Haunting me I'm broken