An Ache

An ache that agonizes.
An ache that keeps me awake.
She fills me, with vibrant colors.
She draws me in.
She loved me first.
I didn't know.
She came to meet me.
I didn't show.
Uncertainty defines, she, & I. Or her & me.
I think too much about her.
What is there, outside of her?
So many things!
She's exciting
My world is black with her.
Black scribbles found all around me.