I Should Never Have

I should never have fallen in love with you.

Well, that's something I'd like to say, to justify the regret I feel for making the effort to make you stay. Only for you to make me feel rejected and neglected.

I should never have fallen in love with you.

I should have accepted the reality that this between us was a fantasy.

But I let the hope of us cloud the things that were obviously there for me to see.

I should never have fallen in love with you.

 What I should have done was let you do whatever you wanted and walked away.

Instead of staying in this state of confusion, of should I leave or should I stay?

I should never have fallen in love with you.

But instead I gave you the best part of me.
Only for you to play me like a deck of cards and I was just one of the other thirteen hearts.

Trying to be the one while trying to erase all the signs that maybe I was falling apart.

I should never have fallen in love with you.

But your smile captivated me.
Your laugh made me melt.
Your eyes made me believe that my trust was something that could be maintained.
 
But, it was only a lie and now I'm broken; wishing that this love for you would finally shut up.