memory

 
inflections of sorrow make my colors bleed
reality bends time for me taking me from my pain
suffocating in the now
losing myself in deep thoughts
with questions, I can't fathom
 
I am delivered to the shadowy realm
keening for things I don't understand
my thoughts go to the deep
where they sleep
 
forfeiting my humanity for honesty
collecting lingering answers
bending leaving my mind scarred
 
living many lives I wonder what the point of wisdom is
if I forget what i've gathered
my lives converge here
sending waves of doubt
 
I am not one that faith explains everything
I'm more of the mind that religion is to brainwash
to make the majority content
 
I tried that and I was rudely awaken
with a crash of memory waking my sleeping mind
I have a key but I don't know what it opens
and I wonder anew was forgetting a mercy or a curse