sink

 
in the sunflowers I am impatient
waiting on your spring to fill me with water
I sigh inside myself, struggling to stay shiny
bright for your indifference
such a bitter brightness

you reach for me in your sometimes
and I fade in the waiting
wanting you to notice my hurt

I hold myself tight
sinking inside
I don't regret your brilliance
it is fitting your genius doesn't always need me

I am a wallflower blending in
tending the rows in my diary
errant thoughts of you have me in disarray

distraught tears water my skies
and an angry blush is lusting your punishment
and you withhold this pleasure until I can bear no more
then rain terror on me for refusing you entry into my honesty