So Much For The Freedom

It was supposed to be an escape
roaming in the wild with poets
 
It was beautiful at first
unhindered by realities
taking the small joys
in the written word
connecting with the like-minded
 
The point of being here
was to relish in the alternate life
inject some excitement
into a rather bland existence
 
I walked the path of monogamy
for the most part,
so this place
allowed for something a little more
even if only in mind
 
But in connections
comes demands
and just like in life,
I attract
those that want to
alter my intent
force their own versions
of romance on me
request suitable times
to be here
 
And like a fool,
I somehow start
surrendering to the influence
and modifying my behaviour
to fit into the version they want
 
And once again,
give up that freedom.