can you break down these walls

I ask you
if you're doing to kiss me goodbye
and you ask me why you'd want to
when I'm cold as ice
my sharp edges like razors
against your soul

And I don't know how to explain
that I need your touch more
when I'm in pieces

I want you to push
through the pain of me
wrap me in your arms
and take all the rage
I can slam into you
like it's a fucking caress

I want you to bury me
in kisses and love
until I'm ripping you open
with the bones of my sorrow
and you know
you know
it's not about you

Instead I leave a trail of eggshells
for you to slice yourself open with
because I'm a bitch when I'm broken
and I forgot how to be human
when you leave me alone too long
without the safety of your touch
that says you still love me
even though I'm a monster today