Checking In

Hey, how's it going?
I thought I'd check in
You may have turned your back
But I'm still your best friend

This search for the light
Hows all of that been?
Thats a rhetorical question
No need to pretend

You're feeling worse than before
I know, cuz im you
Bumbling around aimless
You don't know what to do

At first I was pissed off
Ill admit that it's true
If you love something let it go
Sometimes that works with hate too

You could never beat me
In truth I just backed away
Cuz I knew that in time
You'd beg me to stay

So I let you spread your wings
Cuz you thought you'd fly free
But I knew the whole time
You'd be thinking of me

You need me in your life
You're meant for the dark
Since I went away
Your life's gotten pretty stark

You think these people are good
But they lead you astray
Set you on this path
But you know they won't stay

I'm all that you got
So let them all go
I'm not saying anything
You don't already know

They don't care about your life
Neither do I
But here is the difference
At least I don't lie

We both know your worthless
The light won't change that
Thats no longer just me talking
You see thats a fact

So get rid of these people
The kid, the brit, the girl with the fire
The single mom, the mystery woman
Your friends sister that you used to desire

Im all that you need
You're sick of the fight
If you listen to me
We can still make this right

I saw your little message
Where you tried to explain
Like I dont already know
I lived through that pain

You claim I was your light
But was corrupted to dark
The thing is
You couldn't be further from the mark

I was created from necessity
I was made to protect
To shield you
From years of abuse and neglect

I thought what that meant
Was to keep you alive
To endure all the bad
So that you could survive

Over time it was clear
That I needed to change
Thats when my approach
Had to rearrange

It's the being alive
That was the source of the pain
Continuing to live
You cannot sustain

So im still trying to protect
As I always have done
You can look for other options
But you know there are none

You'll never be happy
Theres too much messed up in your head
So hear me when I tell you
That you're better off dead

When you come to your senses
You know where Im at
Come and find me
Lets have us a chat