Honest

   
   
   
    what keeps the boat coasting afloat this wide open ocean through thick fog-with no where in particular one wants to go?(just wanting to escape)  
   
  one doesn't know.... pure instinct above any superficial "goals";  
   
 while physical-mental-be going through the most; there's windows of opportunity where one's mind just goes-"let's just absolutely once and for all, let everything go"-  
   
because it's really not worth the toll-  
   
but the body has yet been ready/able to follow....