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Lost Me
I tried so hard to save you,
and in the process,
I lost me.
Forgetting all the things I wanted,
I abandoned my own needs.
I put you first,
and in turn what did that get me?
A knife in the back,
and a broken heart,
when you should have just killed me.
Living with the self pity,
is equivalent to dying anyway.
Mourning my hopes and dreams,
that I put on the back burner,
because I was so certain
that you’d stay.
Now a hollow shell of myself,
who can I turn to? When there’s no one else.
I stay in bed and sleep the day away,
because getting up and facing myself
after letting myself down is too much to take.
In my own tears, I’d drown.
How could I have been so stupid?
How could I have been so blind?
I hope that one day I’ll forgive myself,
maybe in due time..
Speaking of time,
so much wasted,
so much invested.
So much time spent on someone who didn’t deserve it,
I wish that I would’ve kept it.
But they say that healers
always attract those who are broken.
While that may be some of the truest words ever spoken..
I still tried to fix you.
I still tried to mend the pieces.
I absorbed your pain to take it away,
and now the hurt never ceases.
It lives on, through me.
The same me, that I lost.
I’d contemplate selling my soul to get back to me,
but at what cost?
- Poetic Gawdess
and in the process,
I lost me.
Forgetting all the things I wanted,
I abandoned my own needs.
I put you first,
and in turn what did that get me?
A knife in the back,
and a broken heart,
when you should have just killed me.
Living with the self pity,
is equivalent to dying anyway.
Mourning my hopes and dreams,
that I put on the back burner,
because I was so certain
that you’d stay.
Now a hollow shell of myself,
who can I turn to? When there’s no one else.
I stay in bed and sleep the day away,
because getting up and facing myself
after letting myself down is too much to take.
In my own tears, I’d drown.
How could I have been so stupid?
How could I have been so blind?
I hope that one day I’ll forgive myself,
maybe in due time..
Speaking of time,
so much wasted,
so much invested.
So much time spent on someone who didn’t deserve it,
I wish that I would’ve kept it.
But they say that healers
always attract those who are broken.
While that may be some of the truest words ever spoken..
I still tried to fix you.
I still tried to mend the pieces.
I absorbed your pain to take it away,
and now the hurt never ceases.
It lives on, through me.
The same me, that I lost.
I’d contemplate selling my soul to get back to me,
but at what cost?
- Poetic Gawdess
Published 30th Jun 2024
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30th Jun 2024 11:09am
I feel your pain.
This is a heart pouring writing ✍️
A great art of a write when the reader can see him/ herself in your piece.
Great Job
This is a heart pouring writing ✍️
A great art of a write when the reader can see him/ herself in your piece.
Great Job
30th Jun 2024 3:17pm
Thank you so much. I pray that day by day that pain lessens for you..
xoxo,
~P.G💋
xoxo,
~P.G💋
30th Jun 2024 3:55pm
Girl, I feel your pain.
I’ve been here too many times to count.
It took many years to find myself. I’m wishing the same for you.
Holding you in thought, poetess.
I’ve been here too many times to count.
It took many years to find myself. I’m wishing the same for you.
Holding you in thought, poetess.
30th Jun 2024 4:49pm
30th Jun 2024 4:11pm
This is felt so deeply.
"But they say that healers
always attract those who are broken.
While that may be some of the truest words ever spoken.."
Like moths flying towards a candle light. But the light needs air to keep it burning. Love it. Fia xoxo
"But they say that healers
always attract those who are broken.
While that may be some of the truest words ever spoken.."
Like moths flying towards a candle light. But the light needs air to keep it burning. Love it. Fia xoxo
30th Jun 2024 4:50pm
