i really don't know I'm just rambling on

Sorrow of being the Top dawg
The is a big problem when you always have to be the bigger person in the world meaning you’re staying with too many small minded individuals.
So why keep on trying to pretend that their individual problems mean jack shit to you.
Fuck that weak ass noise and embrace the chaos, that will one-day envelope you in blood and death
Embrace it the chaos and all its majesty for its deeply rooted in pain
Smoke have a laugh, intoxicfy your wildest desires and have a good in doing that shit

I’ve created so many hells for me in my mind until I find my solace the hunt wont stop
Just hope I don’t kill me in the process of searching
I really should start doubling down on the helping and loving business
The nature of Men is consuming of one another we are parasites
Until the host body dies but none the less
The crucifixion of my heart is hard but it is what’s truly needed for my life to go on
I should always be a dick and super impose my will on others for my benefit and well being
Fuck this bleeding heart bullshit impose your will on other or the will impose it on you,
I’m very well aware of my bitch made personality
Always have Murphy’s law in your heart what you think it is, it is
Fuck if I’m going to be a troublesome piece of shit let it be so.
Impose your very own will on others
Use them to a point that when you leave them they have nothing but hate for you
Always admiring the most evillest people that have ever graced this little blue dot
But never replicating it, what a naïve full you have become
Be a fiend tap into every single dark impulse you have why fear your very self
Be him and fucking stand on business or if you don’t stand someone will stand in your place