Stir Crazy

This restlessness has overcome me  
I'm agitated and anxious
And trapped in a world of dark abstraction  
I tried to escape my mind
With activities and books
I even tried walking and exercise
Nothing helps
I keep replaying the same thoughts
I spiral deeper  
Into the abyss of no return
My thoughts grow darker  
I lie awake in this void  
My eyes wide open during this nightmare
The voices are getting louder
I can't escape
As I revisit my life
I write for therapy
Maybe that will help
Maybe my vacant thoughts will be removed
When my canvas is filled  
With the spectrum of my imagination
But this dark cloud keeps hovering over me
Storming constantly
I'm cold Isolated and alone
I can't write
I can't think
I can't process anything
I am overwhelmed by this emptiness
An emptiness of darkness that consumes me
This haunting sorrow
Of regret
Has me reliving every mistake
Every choice
Every breath I ever took
My mind is descending within itself
As my thoughts return
The restlessness entrapping me
Has me agitated and anxious
Lost in a twisting world of vortexes
Waiting impatiently  
As my thoughts devour their thoughts
Leaving me imprisoned  
In this asylum  
Of my mind