Vengeance

Fuck nothing.
And fuck the people whose hearts are so black and twisted that they don’t function as they should.

Girl, you have more power and dignity in one eyelash than the parasite and its sidekick that attempted to ruin you.

Flaunt your beautiful self. He knows. Keep shoving yourself in his face and show him how tall you’re standing.

Xoxo

I am taller than him in heels, so yeah.

I will.

Thank you.

The rage beast is out. No one to talk me down from the ledge. No one to tell me I’m wrong. No one today they’re sick of me getting upset at their fucking bullshit.

Feels nice.

As deeply as I cared for him… that’s the level of anger and revulsion I’m vacillating between. (With the occasional crying spree because my sad ass looooovvveeed him.)

Ugh. Love you. Thank you.

Always

Shine like the diamond you are girl.

Love you

Annihilate that worthless sentiment.
A million hugs for you

I’m killing years of shit. Years.

Annihilating with a flame thrower.

Thank you babes!

xo

🥰

Thank you

do you really want my opinion!?!?!?

I do Sam.

I’ve been a dick to men on this site because I was taken. By him.

And I’m the loyalest fucking soldier you’ve met. I will shoot first to defend my people.

So, I was a dick to you to make sure we didn’t flirt in a way that would degrade my relationship.

That relationship is over.

So yeah. I want your thoughts. Thank you for offering.

Ok first of all I like you when you’re being a dick.. this means I have done something stupid and I need a dick to get me in my place. So don’t worry about it. What are friends for…

Ok now to my opinion… I hope you don’t get mad at me for saying this.
But why do you want to get revenge… it’s not worth it.
As I see it .. and as I see you…. You are an amazing wonderful beautiful woman.
You can have the world on your fingers… literally…. With a body and a personality like yours you can get anything anyone anybody you want … so fuck him…you don’t need him… and you certainly don’t need to waste your time with trivial vengeance … as much as it might feel nice at the beginning but it’s really not worth your effort.
Go have fun…. Find a guy or a gal and fuck their brains off… heck with a body like yours they’ll be lining the streets to Timbuktu….

Ok I hope I didn’t cross a line … if I did… don’t kick me too hard …..

People be making me cry today … in good ways

Thanks Sam

You weren’t out of line.

Not at all

The way you threw  
us  
away

I got more than anyone,  
and at the end  
I got nothing.  

Fucking nothing.

Refuse to be minimalized. Reject rejection. Complicate the over simplifications of others.

Zero with the rim knocked off is not even an attempt.

Dust your dancing shoes off.

He was worth exactly what he gave you....

I love you. You’ve been dusting me off this entire journey and I know you see patterns too.

Right now he’s getting some grief. I invested a lot in us. I need to mourn that.

But it’s a short mourning period. Very short.

When I’m done purging I’ll forget the color of his eyes, the sound of his voice, the … what was his name?


Fucking nothing.

Bazacktly.

Bazacktly.

So why do you want that? At first love is blind, then love rationalizes. I know. I've been going through my own crash and burn cycles, death spirals. We manifest our realities. I've only really just begun taking a good long look in the mirror. I no longer blame players for playing the only part they know. I'm the one saying, the hell with red flags from the get go.

I think its like the song says. I just get off on the pain.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BAcstCYcZzQ&pp=ygUaaSBqdXN0IGdldCBvZmYgb24gdGhlIHBhaW4%3D

Yeah, its over the top, tongue in cheek, but there's a lot of truth in cliches. I don't know your reasons but I do know we create our realities.

Oh..  AJ, this is hard. Ok. I’m going to try to answer.  

Why do I want vengeance?

Because narcissists don’t feel sorry for what they did or who they hurt. They feel sorry for the result, the loss.  

And I want him to feel fucking sorry. Since he’s inhuman and doesn’t feel, I want him to recognize the loss and I want that shit to punch through his thorax.  

I haven’t been played in a long time and never this hard. So it was new to me. I’m stupid, I know. I get it. The red flags… but he was so convincing and nobody has done this to me before.  

Like… why? Why would anyone do that?  I’m high strung, high energy and high maintenance so I take some work…. but I’m fun as hell, loyal as hell, supportive as fuck and just an all around great person. Why would anyone need to manipulate me? I give anything I have to the people I love, no need to twist, just ask. When shit doesn’t work out it ends, it doesn’t turn into a years-long lie.  

And I feel small. Hurt. Lonely.  

So I’m going to remind him who I am.

And then maybe I’ll remember it myself and you and I can go get beers and listen to rodeo music and wax rhetorical about dumbass choices in relationships. 😘

But hey… AJ?  

Thank you.  

I mean it.

Narcissists thrive on reaction and wither on silence. You wanting...everything you want means nothing to a narcissist. Never did, unless it fits their script. But if he's like most narcissists, he'll drop by again sooner or later to try and Hoover you. Get some response/supply for that "feeling of control" they get by pushing buttons. Love bombing and then discarding you again. Silence is golden. It truly is the best revenge with a narcissist.

First rounds on me if you promise not to snort suds through your nose when your hear about my choices for significant others. 😉

Thank you.

This helps.

A lot.

Good luck. Its hard to break the trauma bonding.

It’s hard.

Thank you AJ.

I keep chipping my nails, I’m hanging on so tight.

BRAVO! There is an amazing power when reality and truth is responded to. Life is about "keeping it real." "To thine own self be true." Hugs and love, Oral

Thank you.

I’ve been true.

It’s the fucktards around me being duplicitous rat bastards.

Yes, jealousy and envy are expressions of "wishes that'll never come true." Keep on being amazing you!!! XOOX, Oral