Marriage Proposal - Journal Entry

The day after Christmas, Joseph asked me to marry him. He knew all my faults and my promiscuous past, and still, he wanted me. I said yes, but knew it was the wrong answer.

Now, only days after the birth of my chid, Joseph asks if we should begin to plan our wedding. I love Joseph, but I fear I can never be the true love for just one man. Lovers from my past haunt me as if asking me to return even while making love to Joseph.

As a young mother, I crave stability for my child, but I’m torn. I don’t know if I can give Joseph my whole heart when it’s always wandering.

Some days I regret saying yes. Other days, I try to believe it was the right choice. For now, I’ll navigate this path as best as I can.