I Am The Storm

My wife just left me                                  
I don't understand why, I provided her everything     The house the car everything                                
She walked out the door                                
My son doesn't have time for me anymore either   Since his mom left he hasn't called or visited           He sent me a letter a few weeks ago                         But I think he's too busy with his family                     My young new boss wants to change everything
I tried showing him how to do the work
I gave everything to that job
And like that I was fired
My dad's been very ill
My mom takes care of him
I know she wants to focus on him
So I try not to bother them
 
 
What happened to everyone in my life
I gave them so much and they all abandoned me
Leaving me with all the wreckage from the storm
I reached into my tattered pockets and I pulled
Out a broken mirror I found on the sidewalk
And the letter from my son
Dad, I hope you're doing better..We really miss you and we want you to come to your granddaughters graduation..I know you haven't seen her in over 10 years since mom left but she's 22 now and graduating with top honors..you would be so proud of her...mom and her new husband will be there and so will grandma..grandma misses you..she hasn't heard from you since right before grandpa passed..so please find time from your busy job and stop by and see everyone..love you
 
 
I saw the date on the letter from 15 years ago
As I folded it back up and placed it in my pocket
I saw my reflection in the mirror
The remnants of an old weathered man
Tears rained down my face and I realized
My lies hiding my addictions were the
hurricane winds my wife felt which ultimately
Destroyed my home and my marriage
My drinking fueled the tsunami that cascaded
down on my relationship with my son
After I lost my family my rage erupted like a
Volcano at work and I was fired
My heart was filled with burning molten lava
My soul became obsidian
This blizzard left me stranded from my parents
Isolated and alone in this world  
               
             
I am the storm..a self destructive chaotic cyclone that caused every cataclysmic event in my life