What Lurks Beneath

Sitting in this room alone again  
The tears cannot be stopped  
Walking on air for multiple days  
How quickly my mood has dropped  
 
Pushing away a little at a time  
A master at this game  
Hounded by the guilt i feel  
Wrapped up in this shame  
 
I showed too much of what lurks within  
What made me think I could?  
No one can bear this weight of darkness  
No one ever should  
 
I cannot share this part of me  
It leaves ruin within its wake  
She won't become another victim  
I can't make that mistake  
 
Ill keep her protected from this pain  
Wont let her get too close  
Her light will not be extinguished  
By a monster so morose  
 
The slightest bit of who I am  
Was a shockwave she didn't expect  
This time i won't stand idly by  
While someone I care about gets wrecked  
 
She wont understand why i have to do this  
But i can't pretend I don't  
The darkness wants to comsume her  
I can't let that happen, I won't  
 
Ill go back to the lonely days  
The solitude where I belong  
Take comfort in the fact shes safe  
Doesnt matter if it's wrong