Confusion

I completely had the opening lines from the film (… alright, alright… ‘movie’) Patch Adams in my head when I was reading this piece:

“All of life is a coming home. Salesmen, secretaries, coal miners, beekeepers, sword swallowers, all of us. All the restless hearts of the world, all trying to find a way home. It's hard to describe what I felt like then. Picture yourself walking for days in the driving snow; you don't even know you're walking in circles. The heaviness of your legs in the drifts, your shouts disappearing into the wind. How small you can feel, and how far away home can be. Home. The dictionary defines it as both a place of origin and a goal or destination. And the storm? The storm was all in my mind. Or as the poet Dante put it: In the middle of the journey of my life, I found myself in a dark wood, for I had lost the right path. Eventually I would find the right path, but in the most unlikely place.”

… and that’s exactly what I thought of when I read this. The key to finding happiness is allowing happiness to find us. How strange and beautiful that really is.

Keep going. You’ll get there.

-M

Thank you Missy. There is a lot to consider in what you have presented. That was kind of you to share. Ive never seen that that "film" before. So, I wasnt familiar with those lines. Pretty insightful for a clown movie.

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Clarity will come in time.. Just roll with it and see where it leads.love it 💯🙏
Fia xoxo

Thanks Fia. Im going to try.

So…
When I was first able to fully feel emotions after coming off psych meds (I was on them for over 25 years) I was terrified. Happiness was the most confusing and overwhelming. All I wanted to go back to was what I knew - anxiety and anguish.
It takes time. Give yourself space.
I’m done preaching…

Very poignant. That's exactly where I'm at. Staying in my safe space. What I know. That is darkness. The other emotions abd feelings are overwhelming. Its a hard journey. One that i have restarted countless times.

Ok…some more sunshine (I’ll blow it in the direction opposite your ass this time)
Life gives us as many chances as we need, so…

It seems like there's a tendency for us to mistrust beauty & happiness when so much of what's familiar is darkness & pain. As you said...take the chance or duck back into familiar territory...yup, I get this

Precisely. Well said!

👏 👏 👏 👏! Another great 👍 deep powerful 👏 musing that captures your readers and have them deeply thinking!! Nice 👌

Please 🙏 keep on writing ✍ ok peace ✌ and blessings 🙏 always

Thanks my brother.  I appreciate you!

Crap… this is bad .. you just touched a nerve .. why do you always do that

Sorry Sam. I just write from a real place that I think many can relate to in some way or another. Ya know? But we aren't alone. We're in it together.

There was a time not too long ago that I couldn’t remember the last time I had laughed; there was only misery and strife. And I remember, upon laughing again one day, how damn awkward and wrong it felt. I felt like I was betraying myself, betraying my darkness that I had always known. The laughter felt foreign in my mouth.

I like what Missy said though, “The key to finding happiness is allowing happiness to find us.” It sort of felt like that for me, allowing happiness to creep in here and there, until eventually it wasn’t so unusual anymore. Take care brave poet, it’s possible.

Perfectly sums up the emotionsv and thoughts behind this write. I really appreciate your words Blue!

Wow! This was fucking deep. This touched my heart. Youve made me stop, take a step back and reasses the situation.

Thank you. I mean that. I really appreciate this completely different viewpomt.

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