She loved me, she loved me not

 
I look at my reflect
 is this pain real
Feelings of rejection
a half exception, a love dream
she loves everyone
Was or wasn’t it special toward me
“I am feeling the victim” should I?
The lies of yesterday
I  closed my eyes to yesterday
 not wanting to see
Today like yesterday
was the true reality
Will it be better than what i believe
The  pain is real
What was or wasn’t real
your  being in Love to seal the deal
What was real